Anyways, like i said year 2008 isnt exactly a fantastic year for me ! Instead, i tasted more salt & bitter rather then sweet-ness. This is indeed a much difficult year for me to pull through compared to lives in the past. Alrights, im used to living in luxury, in my own defined comfort zone, so a mere small obstacle may be deem as difficult for me. That's my definition of difficult. hahas. i ought to learn how to accept heartbreaks and goodbyes more easily.
i've said 2 goodbyes this year, two major goodbyes that left a mark to the heart.
- him. yups he officially walked out of my life and has nothing to do with me anymore. It was really heart-wrenching at the start, what we've shared for almost 2 years and he could walk out of it easily. Like the previous blog posts, ppl who read those archives or has been with my blog since i started blog. i've stated what i've gained losing him. i should say, it'd more been a blessing in disguise (:
- wai gong. i miss him ! i really do. its been a while since he's passed on. Still, he's in my mind. Even till now, its a lil hard to believe that my wai gong is gone. Especially when the tot of cny is near-ing, it hurts even more when i couldnt visit him during cny anymore. Wai gong's passed on, however bonded our family even closer. we learn, cherish.
Goodbyes are hard. but i'll have to see each goodbye as a beginning to a new chapter. Like the globe is orbiting every mins, every seconds. Nothing is permanent. Live life to the fullest while we can. (:
Friends, family, love, study, work. They have all played a part in playing difficulty. Or maybe, it was just me. Expectations, conflicts, misunderstandings, busy etc. Sometimes, i just felt that these were too heavy from them. However, with no doubt, they bring me laughter. Many many precious moments that we could use and laugh at them when we're old. they're my pillar of support but at the same time, they can potentially crush me....
But loved ones normally bring me more support than they can try to crush me. And im thankful i've got these loved ones in my life...
you know, like when i thought that i'm at my low point of life, that nobody didnt really care. These wonderful people will then appear to make my day. Those who've been through things with me thru this year, i thank you. Those who went all the way for me,i thank you too (:
人是很忘本的。people tend to pin point and remember ppl a few mistakes they committed, but nvr did really rmb the good they've done, the things they've shared, the once closeness tgt. How come good moments didnt really did compare with the bad ones ? or rather, why is bad moments more signficant than the good ones? :/ hahas. im one good example, i mostly rant abt the bad things that happened in 2008, but nvr did think abt the happy ones !
if there's smth to calculate the amt of happiness in contrast with bad moments in 2008, i'd tink that happiness will sum up to a larger sum. hahas 身在福中不知福啊！And i cant practise what i preach, usually :p lolls
Classmates asked what resolution do we each have for this coming 2009?
- 珍惜
- 勇气
- 力量
- 感情
- 知足
- 学业
And of course, its some other materialistic needs i have to satisfied myself with in the upcoming year :p
hahas & there, 2008 will be gone is a swish soon ! lets hope that 2009 will be an even better year to come, ohhs and world peace too ! xoxo' :DDDD
Meanwhile, Happy coming year 2009!